There are probably more stabbings than people think but most still live so that’s the reason its not major news. There are certain things that will put your life in danger. The first of which is being a snitch. A snitches life is worthless for obvious reasons. The second biggest reason is messing with a mans punk (a punk is the common term for a fem. Gay male in prison) For some a punk is like property but for others some of the guys are in love. To flirt with, make passes, make fun of, cuss out or try to fight someone’s punk is cause for getting jumped at the very least. Debt in drugs or gambling is another obvious reason.
In prison you lose everything except for two things your word and your balls. If someone disrespects you and you let them get away with it, you lose your balls in everyone else’s eyes, and can become a target.
What is disrespect then? That’s tricky and that’s the thing that get people hurt, jumped, stabbed and sometimes they are clueless as to why it happened. Reaching over someone’s tray, bumping into someone without excuse me, waking someone up (this goes for when he comes home to: P) sitting on someone bed, the list is endless and the fight or whatever doesn’t always happen right then it could be up to 3 days later. So no matter what you always have to be alert you can trust no one. Any day could be the day you go down. That’s the way of life on the inside. I’ve heard people say it’s easy in here a vacation even. The stress, the paranoia, the loneness and the confinement, is enough to drive you completely mad. I’ve shared call with some convicted of murder and been friends with someone facing the death penalty. There are people in here that are weak that get preyed on and there are people that prey on the weak. But don’t forget that there are people that just want make it home that want to tread softly enough so that the wrong people don’t you but at the same time walk tall enough so you don’t make an easy target. It’s a think line. Try not to judge everyone too harshly b/c everyone on the inside is paying the price. Just like I tell a lot of the guys that talk shit about their families life on the outside is hard there’s bills kids work its not easy. But for you all on the outside don’t forget what we are going through, battles which most of you all hopefully will never have to know about. Letters phone calls visits for that little bit of time we are on the outside again, so believe me when I say that the little things add up. Hope everyone is doing okay and still enjoying reading.
He told me that he didn’t make it as rough as he could have, for my sake because he knows that I worry myself to death anyway. I’m going to post his commissary list and a list of the things not to mail, later this week. I’m hoping I’ve fixed the comment section so people can leave comments on here for him.